Book Cover - By: Know Buddies Design
... the mannequin is a self-portrait I did when I was still in college,
while surviving pure evil ...
... she holds a very big part in my storytelling ...
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This memoir is written by
Just Scrambled Eggs
... an extension to my Blogs
as part of my healing journey.
August 3, 2024
I have finished my Memoir Part 4 - The Plaid Prince, and we are ready to publish it. I am excited, but I am also nervous about it as I am not a professional writer, but I think it's a pretty good story and I also feel I deserve to share it. I had to live through it, so why not get to use it as a novel ..."write what you know" ... well, I know abuse. But ... I also now know love, kindness and acceptance, and the ending is so amazing! I think people will really enjoy that part!
I started with Part 4 as it was the easiest for me to finish at this time. Parts 1 - 3 are written but I couldn't go back into them right now and edit them. While I go through psychotherapy, I will get stronger and be able to face those demons head on, but for now Part 4 was the right choice as I love the outcome and that's what made this so simple for me to write...it just flowed. The more I worked on Part 4, the more I read it and edited it, the more in love I became with the ending, and it made my heart full and happy, it made my Parts feel that love and happiness as well!!! They had never had those feelings before and my Self felt so light, bright and loved! It was magical!!!
It is written by a number of my different Parts (IFS Therapy) though, so there's some past and present tenses mixed into the writing, different voices sharing their version of the story. It's quite visible in their mannerisms and moods, who was present at the day that section was written...you can really see where one Part steps back and the other steps forward. But I think it makes it kind of neat as it's helping my healing process, allowing all my Parts to have their say and release the burdens they have been carrying for far too long. And it reads like I talk, a bit all over the place, pretty detailed, storytelling personalities ... ADHD very much has a place in all my Parts, but it's entertaining.
This story is dark, deep, disturbing, and very sad (...but it's still not my worst story...)! There are numerous triggers and it's tremendously gut wrenching ...so be warned... but it is also beautiful and full of hope, friendship and a deep love that carries through the times.