First photo I am sitting on the back porch writing this blog earlier in the day...the second photo is me waiting for my Man to come get me so we can go out to dinner as I still don't have electricity. ...I painted my own Halloween T-Shirt as I couldn't find one in the stores...his name is Ghosty!!! (I'm very original :)! )
October 21, 2024
I wrote this during a day long power outage. I didn't have much else to do as I couldn't do chores or anything, so I spent a lot of time working out, meditating, decorating for "Halloween!!!" (YAY!!!) and writing this blog in my blog notebook (didn't have enough battery left in my laptop to use it). And all I could really think of to write about was how "I Love My Kick Ass Life!!!"
........ so here is that blog written at 12:12pm Oct. 19th while sitting on the back porch on a gorgeous sunny fall day ........
I've said this many times, even in other blogs, but man I Absolutely Love My Kick Ass Life!!! My Man says to me quite often "You get all the good stuff!", and he's right. I really do have everything, and it really is all good stuff...actually amazing stuff.
I love my Home! Sure, I just rent, but I have never been so happy anywhere as I am here. I am free and safe. I do as I please. I have everything I need. It's so beautiful and relaxing here, inside and out. Yes, there's lots of work to do, but to be here makes it all worth it...and especially on a day like today that is absolutely gorgeous out, what more could I ask for. It's well past noon and the power has been out all morning, so I've worked out and had my breakfast here on the back porch in the warm sun, where I am now writing this. The sky is a magnificent clear blue, the leaves are not quite full colour change but they are getting there... and still beautiful. Chickadees and Bluejays are singing. Plants are still flowering, feeding the stray bees still working hard. And my favourite butterflies are still zipping around the yard just doing what they do...they're the best!!!
I love my new career choice. It wasn't something I had ever really thought of doing, but I guess we don't get to make all our choices. I never thought I'd take up writing as a career, but I am thankful the Universe sent me this direction as I really do enjoy it. I've always been a chatter box (ADHD and all, right) so why not put it into writing. It truly has made me feel more connected and heard. And it's also been so wonderful really to get this stuff out of me (in regard to my blog "Don't Talk About It!") so, I absolutely enjoy doing all this writing...it's also easier on my body and causes far less pain then mostly everything I else I try to do.
I love my therapy! Everything about it. Physio and Psycho are both amazing. Both Therapists are super invested in their jobs, and it really shows in the level of commitment they put forward into my healing. And I love the commitment I too have put into my healing as well. It makes me all so happy to be working so hard at changing my life...it's a hell of a lot of work, but it's so worth it. And to top it off is seeing the amazing changes I have made for myself. Sure, yes, I still have numerous issues, but on days like today, when I can just sit back and feel the joy and peace and love of a wonderful life, it's just so absolutely amazing. I truly am (despite everything wrong) so very happy!!!
I love my Self for my perseverance and strength. My good, kindhearted nature. My positivity and optimism, always trying to give the benefit of the doubt, looking for the good in others and that forever sought after silver lining. Trying to see the good in everything! Enjoying the small things! Just trying to be happy and content with what I have and where I am (some days it's hard, but I am trying just as hard, and it's all so worth it).
I love my cats for their companionship and comedic relief. Yes, they are a lot for me and have taken a lot out of me, but I am grateful we are able to help each other and that they have been with me all this time. They are fun, funny and truly just love me no matter what state I am in or what I can do for them...they are just so happy to have me around.
And best of all, I Love My Man!!! He is the reason everything turned around for me!!! He offered me this beautiful home, this sanctuary, at a very reasonable rate. He's helped me afford to stay here all this time. He provides the heat, plows the snow, maintains the property, at basically no cost to me. Because of him I get to live a lifestyle I would have never had the opportunity to live...and it is so fun and amazing! He takes such good care of me and is always thoughtful of my needs. He brings me on exciting trips and tries to include me in his daily life as much as he can (he's a very busy Man). I have never felt so admired, wanted and loved...and I have never admired, wanted or loved anyone like I do him. He truly is the Man I have always dreamed of...right from the start, everything about him is what I have always wanted. He truly is The Man of My Dreams!!! I am so grateful to have him!!!
Although I do have everything I need, I still have goals. Some pretty big ones at that, but it's good to dream and especially dream big, "reach for the stars", right!? I'd really like to make my own money again (and the super cool thing about that is, it'll only be me spending my own money for the first time in my life...so cool!!!). I want to own my own house again (preferably this farm...I know...dream big!!!). And I'd like a studio space beside the house so that I can set it up to be with my cats as well. There's two parts to this, one, to make doing my chores much easier on myself so I'm not in so much pain all the time, and two, to get to spend more quality time with my kitties ...while I work... so I guess that's three parts since I get to work as well! :)
Yes, sure, I've had a lot of crap to deal with in my life, but this here, right now, where I am in my journey, makes up for all of it. I couldn't be happier! ... (Ok, yes, I'd love to have been with my Man all this time, and I do feel sad about that, I can't go without mentioning that shitty part as it really does eat at me deeply!) ... But I truly am so very happy!!! I know I've shared this before, but it's so wonderful, I just want to share it again...and probably will again and again. Because I truly am happy, lucky and grateful to be living the best life I could ever have dreamt of. And in all fairness, my 'dreams' were never this good as I never knew what this actually felt like, but now I do, and it feels Amazing!!!
I Love My Kick Ass Life!!!
(Chickadees Singing :) !!!)
Out playing in the hay fields.
Three views from the back porch where I sit and write, and the last one of the solar lights in my living room with the fading sunset while the power was still out.
