A wonderful photo of my beautiful home after I finished the first lawn cutting of the year.
May 7, 2024
I was diagnosed with Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder in my mid-twenties. It was no big deal, just another for my list of different diagnoses, I already had other mental health issues, what was one more. I understand the issues with having ADHD, but I really don't see it as this horrible, life altering problem. Sure, I'm a bit spacy "Ooo, Something Shiny", I talk 'A Lot', I'm very fidgety, I forget what I am doing, I have a million thoughts in my head at any given time, and I jump from one task to the next without finishing the first one. But so what, so I just have to come back and work at that task again. At least a bunch of tasks have been started...and may even get finished, at least some anyway. And as for the spacy, fidgety, forgetful, busy brain, although it is tiring to be this way, I still enjoy it and wouldn't change it for anything. I like the way I am. I took the meds for it, and yes, I was somewhat focused, which was neat, but not worth being 'contained', like being myself was a bad thing. If others don't like me for being me, who cares, they are more than welcome to go away.
(Side Note: the meds apparently triggered/exacerbated the Trigeminal Neuralgia, so was TOTALLY Not worth it for me to take.)
A good example of my high energy - when I clean the house - I'll start in the kitchen, then while I'm doing that, I'll find something that goes into another room, while in the next room I'll see something that needs to go to another room so will put that where it was supposed to be, and once I am in that room I'll find something else, usually that goes into the kitchen, and so I'll head back in there. Sure, I spend a lot of time running in circles, but I still get a lot done, it's just all "Scrambled" and all over the place but I still get what I need to do finished, and then some. I've always been this way and never really saw it as a bad thing.
Sure, I am a bit weird I guess, but again who cares...what's normal anyway, I bet it's boring. Ya, when I was young the kids use to pick on me and bully me relentlessly, but they would have done that whether I had ADHD or not. They just sucked. But for the most part, adults don't seem to be too bothered by it. Some people who are a bit pretentious get snippy with me, but for the most part people are quite understanding of my ADHD and try to work with me. When I was in college, they even gave me accommodations to help me along, it was fantastic. My marks were incredible. I graduated both of my Diploma Programs with Distinction despite my issues and all the other bs I was dealing with at that time...and I was Not taking the ADHD meds.
And, to top it off, I personally am grateful for my ADHD. I am funny, creative, interesting, full of energy. Boy am I super grateful for that extra energy, with my chronic pain this extra energy helps get me through the day. But what I enjoy the most is the creativity. I can see outside the box; I see the other sides of things that most people don't see. I don't have a lot of friends, and I spend a good chunk of my time alone, but I am super ok with that because I have tons of interests and I think I am hilarious as well, so I enjoy my own company. I have a great, outgoing, happy personality (despite all the crap I've endured). I work well alone and with others. Most of my jobs have been in Customer Service which I absolutely loved, and now I spend a lot of my time just being creative. I do a lot of writing, photography, and some art, playing my Cajon and singing, plus I spend a lot of time doing outdoor tasks, tending to my many plants, taking care of my cats, as well as working out...even with the constant pain I am always in. I think having ADHD has been a blessing and I feel bad for those who think of this as a curse.
Some pretty Spring flowers in my yard as well as a lovely shot of half of the driveway leading up to my beautiful home!